from myspace, posted oct. 15

so i just saw an oncologist yesterday, and this is what he had to tell me.


turns out i have one of the rarest forms of cancer around. i should be starting treatment in the next day or two. if i stay here, it will be a collaborative effort between the childrens hospital and the siteman cancer center, since my form of cancer is mostly associated with young children. i'll more or less be a guinea pig to see how to treat this in an adult.

so since this is so rare, they kind of dont really know exactly how to treat it. but it will definitely include surgery, chemo, and radiation. and there is a very outside chance i might have to go to new york for treatment at an even more advanced cancer center there.

and unfortunately, it is life threatening and it is in quite an advanced state.

so yeah... thats the deal. but i'm in good spirits. i certainly dont feel like i'm dying, so refuse to believe what they tell me about all that. i'll post bulletins and stuff with updates as much as i can. obviously, treatment will be very intensive, and it will last several months. so i'll do what i can.

so thanks for all your concern and support. the only thing that will get me through this is family and friends.